An unfinished tale

27/12/2018 Finland

Three overnight bus rides,
two cruise nights,
one reindeer ride later.
Three Finnish cities,
two Scandinavian countries,
and one white Christmas later.

My heart is full of love
of those who give and create.
Full of gratefulness
of adventures and experiences.
My imagination of vivid experience lingers.
My love of people and things grew stronger.
My gratefulness of this life stays.
And my wonderful memories of adventures stored away.

This trip took me to winter wonderland,
to the Arctic Circle of a foreign land,
to negative ten degree weather
and to places that many of us wonder.

Excitement is an understatement
for the sleeps we lost,
the cold we endured, the fun we created
and many more things that will soon be the history.
But this one,
shall be an unfinished tale in my next sleep.

The show will go on

Photo by Rob Laughter on Unsplash

25/12/2018 Christmas, Finland

Kissed goodbye, here I go.
Walking on the lonely road,
Dragging my suitcase
On the bumpy road.

Without a glance
At the direction of you.
Because I knew the second
Will be long.

Hours past and roads
Are still long.
But I knew I must
Put on a glory show.

Show you what I can do
Without your help.
Show you what I can do
Without your love.

Step by step,
Day by day.
I am getting strong
And doing great.

Rain pours, wind blows,
I must go.
Let it pour and let it blow.
I will not stop the show.

She is within

 23/12/2018 - Finland

Photo by Nick Reynolds on Unsplash

In a world filled with more than us,
Plants, trees and stars.
All I see was you and me.
All along, all I can have was me.

Stars filled up the night sky
Which I used to look at,
Wish I had you by my side.
All along, all I really had was me.

I used to walk in the darkness,
And look behind me,
Wish I had walked with you.
All along, all I really had was me.

She was stronger than I think,
Smarter than anyone would believe,
Worthier than what he deserves,
Beautiful than what she sees.

All I really needed was just me,
The girl who never left,
Despite what the future holds.
She fostered a home in me
And planned to reside within.

I am healing with my butterfly

Photo by Fleur on Unsplash

Few days after you left me,
I have realised something,
I lost me
and I need to do something.

A butterfly came,
left few imaginations
and her grace lingered.

Expectations were for the weak.
I was ready to fight my battle
like the day that came unexpectedly.
At least, this time I am.

When the needle touched my skin,
and started to create the butterfly
that gave me imaginations again
I knew beauty is pain.

So is love,
So was my love,
So was the moment when truth left unsaid,
respect left undone.

The first few needles were sharp pain
like the time when you selfishly said goodbye
but then it got better.
I was numb to the needle,
I was numb to the pain.

Now I look into the mirror,
I see a butterfly that I wanted
and a person who I wanted.

From now on,
I am healing with my butterfly.