Monday 1 January 2018

2018

Another year another post, 2017 has been a quiet one I suppose. I felt like I have a very set of routine  I have to follow everyday, uni, work then hanging out with friends. Time has definitely gone by especially faster and I've learned so much about myself, career, life and family.

2017 was a year filled with a lot of life-dramas, by that I meant, a lot of 21st birthdays, graduations, engagements and pregos giving birth. My life this year somehow felt very stationery and if it actually moved, it must've have been a very small baby step towards my life that i just don't feel it at all.

Friends around me started doing their life very vigorously by that i meant, getting married, getting a house with their long term boyfriends, and planning a family. Of course that's not majority of friends are doing that, there's definitely a lot of us are still on the same boat with not ready to take on life fully. That is of course totally acceptable too. But it made me realized it really is ok to just be me and follow the path I have built for myself, and be confident with each step I take even the answer is uncertain and the future is just a blur.

2017 was a year I pondered on life hard, questioning about choices I made and kept on thinking about moving out and all that dramas. aka. having fights with my inner peace and that caused a lot of stress for myself and these was period of me that was completely out of order, and just didn't want to do life as how i always have wanted to.

Few big lessons I learned in 2017

1. Authenticity is a tremendously admiring trait
Being authentic and truly just stay true to myself and to the person I am becoming today. I don't hate it and i don't pick on it, every part of traits i have right now made me the only person on earth who named Bessie (not literally) and sometimes clumsy with dark sense of dry humour, all these traits are me and I love all of it.

2. Kick people out of your life
Kick them out bitch, you hear me right. You don't need useless and toxic friends in your life to remind you how bad your life is and keep giving you shit for being yourself and for trying to get your life together and do the right thing.

3.  Be proactive, when you don't like something, you really have to approach it and change it
Being lazy or afraid of changes adding unnecessary stress to your life (at least to my life), and the only way to go about it is definitely to be proactive and do your research, ask for help and do whatever it takes to make that change and accept what you have to and just be that change and embrace that change.

4. Hold your friends tight, and really tight
Last year was a year I experimented with friendship by that I meant, I ignored some of my closest friends because I've been busy with life and just didn't make the effort to connect with them. I was guilty of taking my most lovable friends for granted and things they do for me and words they say to me.


here are few highlights I personally treasure in 2017

- Getting braces ( I don't think you will understand how life changing that is for me, and a 4-year dream come true moment)
- QUT fashion grad volunteering as a dresser - getting model into their outfits, that experience gave me such insight into a mini NY-fashion-week -esque backstage feel
- Adele's concert : starting my 2017 right
-  Redeem my birthday voucher for Frida painting night with two of my favourite people (ignite my love for Frida)
-  Getting myself a Kanken backpack (my first Kanken backpack and my very first $100+ bag and investment I did for a bag)
- Submitting my exchange application
- Attending interview for QUT connector role
- Getting my eyebrows threaded
- Having seafood buffet for the first time even though it was exxy asf
- Trying a tom yum infused vodka cocktail
-  Manly beach date to see the sunset
-  Growing passion for green indoor plants
- Made ReFashion group
- finally my hair is getting longer without having me to constantly wanting to cut it short ( i do occasionally want to chop it off tho) 

Here are some of overused terms in 2017 by me
  • bitch 
  • girl 
  • babe
  • ayeee
  • asf 
  • shit 
  • shiet 
I am actually worried about my vocabularies capacity because they are definitely shrinking slowly.


some photos of those special people who were with me on NYE 2017, you guys all have a very special spot in my life <3





     I wish everyone had a great 2017 and continuously have a great year in 2018 if not, better. Ending this post with my 'daughter' and my 'grandson' acting cute to get my last bit of affection from 2017. 

x. Bessie


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