Advice from a 20 year-old me to my younger selves

 

 

Dear younger me,

Do you still remember how you were so worried about your big nose, tanned skin and crooked teeth? Guess what, your 20 year-old self loves them now. She thinks they are the cute little imperfections that made her unique.

Also, don't be so stressed about OP score as the only way to get into University. I wish I could tell you the importance of exploring your interest during high school instead of fixated on the grades or on what everyone else is going to do. It has been two year since graduation, your 20 year-old self is still clueless about life. She has no ideas of what her interests are and she doesn't even know herself still. If only, the 16 year-old self did something, explored the subjects a bit more, explored her interest a little bit more and explored about life just a little bit more. 

Do you still remember how you desperately wanted to fit in with the popular kids at school? Do you still remember how you tried so hard to impress everyone about your appearance and even how you express yourself. Your 20 year-old  self has done none of these, and have made cooler friends, with just being the most authentic self. Your 20 year-old self is feeling just fine. Forget about trying to impress anyone, the only person you really need to impress is yourself. 

 

Things were never meant to be black and white. There are many possible solutions to life. The world is not going to end because you had/hadn't make a decision. Don't ever rush into decision-making because every decision comes with a consequence you will have to deal with.

Finding someone isn't as easy as you think. Your 20 years old is still single, however, she is happy for the time being. It is not completely a good thing to be single, there's definitely downsides of it. So your 20 year-old self wanted tell you that a high school love story would have been better. At least you would have got a sweet guy to go to formal with and enjoyed the shy affections and the chemistry between two young high school sweethearts. 

It would be a great idea to take a gap year to refresh and find your 18 year-old self. but you didn't. Things were tough. Only if you were well-informed about what a gap year can really do. The 18 year-old self would know what to pick for her life. That is not complaining though, I am happy with being an useless 20 year-old. Things are simpler. 

Do you remember how you were so ashamed of being in love with someone? Being the 17 year-old, you were afraid to express yourself, you had such strong belief that you weren't pretty enough for the boy, and a relationship would destroy your motivations to study hard. But you know what your 20 year-old self would say? Go for it. It was probably the best time to express your love to someone, at least you are developing the Erikson's theory of Intimacy VS Isolation (trying to make my Uni worth it.)

A beautiful quote : “They say to never look back. But sometimes I do. It’s gratifying to see how far I’ve come.” ― Richelle E. Goodrich, Making Wishes: Quotes, Thoughts, & a Little Poetry for Every Day of the Year

With love, 

Your 20 year-old Self.

Last part of the Travel Diary - day 9-10

Read day 7-8 here ;) 

Wadddd up my friends ! It's officially winter in Australia ! I hope you guys all have taken good care of yourselves and  remember to stay warm for this winter! 

This is the last part of my travel diary ! Hooray ! LOL it takes me like 3 months to write them all out. haha 

So continue from previous one, I stayed at my big aunty's house and town for like 3 days (LOL I think). Then I decided to go back to Guiyang with my uncle Er with his car. But before that, my aunty and cousin said they will take me around Wengan a bit more before I leave it for Guiyang. So they took me to this historical place of soldiers who fought during wars. 

this is the outside of the place and i think it is a newly built tourist attraction too ? 

got my niece Xin again ! isn't she lovely ? 

LOL, my friend thought that I have a daughter. LMAO do i really look like a mother that much ? 

i think some of the photos were taken by my niece Xin, haha she was playing with my dslr when we visited there, so if you see the ones with very high up angle then i'd think there chances my niece took them. 

since it's like my personal blog i didn't even bother to adjust the photo , so yeah, i look really yellow. I think maybe its the hair or just the lighting isn't doing its job. Oh, I was holding the hawthorn sugar stick and we call it Tanghulu in Chinese, which is a stick of hawthorn berries that are coated with brown sugar. So when you eat it , it gives a crunch and sweet and sour taste. I actually love it now, i don't use to tho. I guess it reminds me a taste of my hometown and childhood too and therefore, i loved it. 

" take a good photo for me cousin !". "sure." said my cousin. LOL where's the good photo ? 

I dont't even wanna judge on their behaviors, seriously can ya'll just be more civilized and not to pollute the water with your rubbishes? 

she is such a cutie pie ( I am hungry jksss) 

 

well, if you have ever been to Asia then you'd know about this game. You paid to get those loops then what you need to do is to throw them and try to aim the products that you want, if it lands perfect on the object then you will get them for free. Too bad i suck at this , didn't even get anything afterall. ;L

Then we went to another tourist attraction called Si Lin which literally meant - a rock forest

A pretty cool places too but only if all the tourists were a little bit more civilized and well-behaved too. There were so many rubbish on the ground. It was a really nice place but tourists' inappropriate behaviors pretty much have ruined the place and ruined the reputation of the city too. 

so yeah, that concluded most of my two weeks stay in China. After I went back to Guiyang I met up with my high school friends, and my cousin for dinner at her house! 

XOXO

Stay warm ! 

Travel Diary day 7 - 8

First, I own you guys an apology for updating it so slowly.Right now, it's freaking cold, can't even type with my frozen finger.  I will try and not to make any typo tho.

Read travel diary day 5-6 here

So by the time I reached Wengan, it was already late so I didn't do much that afternoon except for chatting with my rellies.

Day 7

And the next day, my aunty took me to visit Grandma's grave at Qinken.

on our way to there but i was attracted to the mist behind all these building. Look at it, ain't it cool. 

the inner we went into the place, the heavier the haze became. It is not a good sign obviously as this indicates how bad the air population has now became in China even in my citiy considering that my city has a lot of forests. I am worried for my relatives who lived around this area. And I am also worried for my other Chinese population, I am lucky that I don't have to live in that environment for long but people, can we all do something and make the air clearer and better? 

Serisouly factory, you are earning money with the bet that you put with environment. If all the people who lived around area will ever get some kind of diseases then I believe your days won't be far either. You will eventually pay what you should be paying for doing such dirty deal. 

As promised in the previous blog entry here is a closer shot of me baby sling wrap my niece. HAHA for some reason I looked extremely tan and yellowy. 

This is how I will look when I become a mother. -- hot mama. HAHAHA 

Grandpa and great-grandpa. 

my cousin is being diligent for once and of course I need to record this 

Them fancy design living room + karaoke , pretty awesome! 

I looked like as if i was high but not quite to the top yet. LMAO thanks my niece Xin for such beautiful portrait of me 

Just to finish my day 7 with my niece Xin's photography on my niece Lian. She's not bad for her age aye ! And that's pretty much the end of day 7, I had a super long karaoke session cos ya'll know how much i loved karaoke!

Day 8
After all my other relatives left i decided to stay with Cousin Qinfan, and sleep at her place.

Ran for foods! After i woke up the next day the haze became so heavy and all you can probably see was like only 1 meter through the haze. It was that scary and ridiculously blurry. I felt as if i have problem with my eyes but it was actually cos of the thick haze. 

just in case if you are wondering what's that house right next to the white house. This house probably like 30 years old. It has quite some stories in it and I was sad that all other houses got taken down. They are pretty rare to see now. Everyone has replaced their old Chinese-style house with a lot more modernized two storeies. 

them UGG boots on the land of China. 

my mischievous cutie niece Xin 

HAHAH this was totally spontaneous, you can name her Bessie too if you want, since it probably gonna suits her better than me. 'dat old Bessie" HAHAH 

I was forced to be the model for my niece and obviously I wasn't happy about dressing this way and took a photo with it. I look so MEH.

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Niece Xin's Show time ! 

God, she will hate me for this ! but dayum girl you have such long legs for being your age! 

After my random stroll down the road I decided to ask my First Aunty to take me to visit my other relatives who lived in the same village. 

just some spontaneous shots of the country view and houses

but then Xin decided to ruin my perfect shot, ,dammit Xin! 

HAHA, I know day 8 slowly become my niece xin's photo collection i do apologize for that but she was the person that i spent my most of my time with during my stay at first aunty's village, surprisingly how age was not a big problem between niece and I.  we had fun for doing random little silly things together. And she was also so passionate , mischievous but lovable in many ways. she deserves a place on this blog. ;) <3 data-blogger-escaped-nbsp="" data-blogger-escaped-p="">

Later that day, my xin's dad took me to another relative's place as they were having a little new years meet up with other relatives and of course, it was the perfect time for me to chat with my old good cousins and friends. I went,but i was a little bit disappointed in a way as I felt i was a little estranged with my old good friends that I used to play with all the time. I guess it is quite a long time since I last gone back home. 

yesh , I just wanted to show you my other niece's juicy little lips. HAHA she has the biggest lip for a little 5 YO. 

haha i just want to let you guys see, how dark I became since I moved to Australia. I blame you for my tan, stupid sun. ;L 

K that's the end of day 7-8. Man I can't even type anything anymore. It is now 9 degree at night. I need to stop now. enjoy all these random snaps. 

XOXO, stayed warm friends!